Sometimes I hate how electronic centered we have become as a culture, but I have to say lately I have been a pretty big fan of the ability to see people and talk to people across the world from me. I honestly don’t know how I would have made it this far this sanely without the ability to communicate with family and friends back home. Facetime, and Facebook, and Skype have been lifesavers for me. My family means the world to me and are my safety net and comfort and I couldn’t do this or have done this without them.
Its not the same to see them through a screen and hear their voice through headphones, and I absolutely HATE that I can’t cuddle with my mom, hold my baby niece, hug my nephews and my sisters and my gramma, or kiss my boyfriend. But being able to spend time “face to face” with them and hear their voice and talk to them and show them things has been so absolutely wonderful.
Being able to see and talk to my family has been so incredibly therapeutic and comforting when I’m stressed or homesick. Once or twice a week I get to video chat my mom and have a nice long talk about anything and everything and I love getting to share my experiences with her and catch up 🙂 A couple days ago I got to skype my lovely sister and her two adorable kiddos for the first time and it was beyond words. Seeing my baby niece and how big she is getting was so good. I miss her so much. The best part was seeing her reaction to seeing me on the screen. I wasn’t sure if she was going to recognize me, but she did!! She heard my voice and saw my face and she started making noises and waving her little arms and then kept trying to kiss me through the screen. Made this auntie’s heart very very happy. Then there is my sweet 5yr old nephew who was so happy to see me and tell me about school and his new friends and to show me his legos and his treasure box. I loved that he wanted to connect with me 🙂 After my sister ended the call, he called me back because he wasn’t ready to be done hanging out with me – so we “played cards” (which was basically him playing cards with his dad, and me watching) but it still made my heart so happy and made me feel so wanted and loved. And then there is my frequent and often lengthy but sometimes super quick facetimes with my wonderful guy person who calls whenever he has a few minutes, just to talk to me and see how I’m doing. He has been a lifesaver to me. As much as I lean on my mom for support, he has probably been my biggest and most frequent encourager so far on this trip; always there willing and ready to listen to me cry and complain and always trying (and succeeding) to cheer me up.
It is amazing how something we take for granted and use everyday for entertainment or convenience can also provide this emotional connection. The internet and my phone/computer have provided a way for me to feel and continue to be connected to the people that mean so much to me that are currently so far away. I never thought I would love my phone so much as I do right now, I know it probably sounds bad, but here it isn’t just my iPhone, its my lifeline and connection to the people I care about. I never want to value an object over the actual people, and I definitely don’t even now, but I am very glad that having it helps me value my time with those people so much more.
In conclusion, I just want to say THANK YOU to the people who have given some of their time to talk to me and helped me get through this first month living in Paris. You all mean so much to me 🙂